unafraid's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- shut the hell up already! it's just been one of those days where all i want to do is write. i've written in this thing like 5 times yesterday. the thoughts weren't even that significant. it was all out of complete and utter boredom, but that's what i should expect from being locked up in a house alone for a whole day. i was getting very lonely. so i called tabin around 10, which was 8 WA time. we talked for about an hour and a half i guess. i used up my mom's calling card. she won't be too happy with me when she gets back...but i always seem to loose track of time when talking to tabin. we talk about almost everything and we have a lot in common. we understand each other. and there's so many inside jokes to laugh about with her. so today mainly i just slept, got on the net, showered, got on the net, slept, got on the net, called tabin, and got on the net. in that order. it's been a very uneventful day for me. i kind of wished i had of gone to school yesterday. i wouldn't have been so bored today...or maybe i would have. who knows. you know, it's amazing how much of an affect one single person can have on another person's life. even if the relationship seems one-sided...if that makes any sense. the thing is that this person has a great affect on a lot of people's lives, i'm sure. ah hell, we all know who i'm talking about. yes, john. the only person i ever talk about. there are tons of girls out there that dream about this boy. lots. and that's sort of weird, because i hate liking a guy that tons of girls fall for. it's just too easy. but i just couldn't help it. there's no way for me to turn it off. i just don't want to be placed in that category with the rest of them. the female fans that think about john more than they should and talk about him more than anyone would care to hear. but i know there is one person who doesn't get annoyed with me being one of these girls. at least i hope she doesn't. just wait until i grow up and i'll realize that there are more important things out there to worry about besides fitting into a category with 100 other teenyboppers. but i can't change the way i feel. 2.14 am - March 9, 2001 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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