unafraid's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- my rushmore.... it's been quite a while since i've come online and i'm not sure why. a lot has happened lately. mostly concerning my love life (or lack thereof) but that's where all the excitement is, i suppose. (ha.) i had a birthday bash last night and it was loads of fun. i found myself zoning out during conversation and just smiling at the thought of all my friends under one roof. well, all the ones in texas, anyway. it was me, trista, jeff, lindsay, sarah, joy, lana, tasha, flossie, shelby, reed, ricky, his 3 friends, miada, justin, and jon. i think that's it. anyway, it was fun. we cooked burgers on the grill (veggie-burgers for reed) and just hung around outside and indoors. people in the kitchen, living room, my room sometimes, and the back porch. people started arriving at 8 pm and the last 2 left at 2 am (lindsay and joy). i just tried to be a good hostess as i mingled with everyone - about 10 minutes in each room off and on. but still, it seemed to be segregated by Sam Goody employees, and non-Sam Goody employees. that's okay. it was still fun. reed and i have gotten along much better lately. at first, we didn't talk and i slipped into that depressed state at work, but near the end of last week, we started to talk some. then each day after that got better and so now we talk and pick on each other whenever and it seems to be back to normal. thank god. we're friends and that's just the way things should be. i was driving home from work today listening to OLP and i got to thinking about my big empty hole of a love life right now. there's someone out there that i might get involved with who's going to be perfect for me. maybe i know him and maybe i haven't even met him yet, you know? i just have to be patient. sure, it's tough right now because most (if not all) of my friends have dreamy love lives and i don't and i'm still drooling over reed, but it's got to get better. in time it will. i just need to let go of whatever's holding me back and i know what it is. time to get over him and move the fuck on!!! oh and melissa:thank you sooo much for the gift, i LOVE it!!! i owe ya one! 2:25 am - May. 21, 2002 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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