unafraid's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- my co-workers can kiss my ass my parents are going out of town tomorrow morning and i have all day off so i decided that i'm going to throw a little party. =) whether this is a good idea or not, i haven't decided. it's sort of spur of the moment so i don't know who's going to show up. we'll see. i don't even have any preparations or anything. surely i can throw something together pretty quickly. joy's got tons of alcohol in her refridgerator so i won't have to go out and buy too much. i really don't need to be spending any money. and plus, if i invite ricky (which i am) he always brings over a case or 2. so i think i'll be okay there. it'll be fun. plus, i don't have to work until 4:30pm on saturday so i'll have most of the day to clean up. my parents don't even come home until sunday afternoon i think. so that's cool. i've never actually been the kind of kid that when their parents go out of town they throw a party. but i guess now i am. i heard laura telling flossie and reed today that jon said they could all come over again tonight. it's like a nightly thing now. everyone goes over to jon's house to play games. am i ever invited? nope. i'm the one and only person at the store who isn't. i am trying not to let it get to me, but it is. i'm the type of person that hates it when they find out someone doesn't like them. i mean, i've always tried to be nice to that kid. but he still just doesn't like me. i don't get it. so now i'm holding a grudge and am just not liking him back. i could turn the other cheek, but how much fun is that? besides he really is kind of arrogant. when i first started working at this store, he started telling everyone that i was lazy and didn't ever do anything. shelby got mad and told him "that girl works harder than you ever will." =) i'd like to say it's true, but i'm not really sure how hard he works, if at all. even the way he's talked to me about other people is just very snobby. we do have conversations at work and get along fine for the most part. i just don't know what his problem with me is. and reed is a whole 'nother story. i think we've stopped talking to each other again. maybe he's trying to come off as an asshole to me so that i'll get over him more quickly. is that possible? maybe he doesn't even realize what i'm starting to think of him now. he tries his damn hardest not to even make eye contact with me. so i continue to just ask him questions and get conversations out of him. but alas, it's always me starting the conversations and him finishing it. it just really really sucks that things have turned out the way they have. it breaks my heart to think of how at one time i felt i could tell him anything and we really did have the best conversations for hours and now he won't even look me in the eye. there's got to be something better out there for me. at least he leaves the store in august. i'm actually looking forward to it now. anyway, time to eat my midnight snack. later kids. 11:13 pm - Jun. 06, 2002 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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