unafraid's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- No one wants to be alone for Christmas time... He forgot Valentine's Day. The first V-Day for both of us to have a significant other and he forgot all about it. you know how special i was trying to make that day for us? then today he tells me he's flying off to San Antonio for his grandfather's birthday the day after V-Day. I even asked him about a week ago if he could leave Valentine's Day open b/c i had a suprise for him and he said okay. all my girl friends were telling me about how their boyfriends were planning all this stuff for them to make it special...and scott doesn't even care. if i hadn't even have said one word about it...the day would have passed without him even having a fucking clue. it's just that i was so happy that i was going to be spending that day with a guy - for the first time in my life...and he doesn't even give a shit about the day. which (stupidly) makes me think he doesn't give a shit about us in general. he's all excited about his birthday though, i know, b/c he keeps reminding me of that. sometimes i get this feeling that we're not meant to be together. and then i think about us breaking up and it breaks my heart. so i'm confused. i love spending time with him. but i've been getting so upset about stuff lately. 80% of the time when i leave his house at night, i leave upset b/c i'll just have this horrible sinking feeling and i don't even know what it is. anyway, i just wanted to whine about how scott didn't remember Valentine's Day and that's the only day i've been planning for for the last week. =( i think i'm done now. i'll go to bed now. later. 1:13 am - Feb. 04, 2003 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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