unafraid's Diaryland Diary

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Long time, no see!!

Wow. It has been AGES since i've been here. it's pretty amazing to see how much i've changed for the better (and the worst). the guys i've dated, the jobs i hated, the depression, the crushes. crazy. it is kinda fun to read about the crushes though... i just can't help remembering how it felt and how giddy i would get when i got that one boy to laugh. or saw his serious side for the first time. those were the days. and you know, having such emotional crushes seemed to occupy my time more! i didn't worry about "why don't i have a boyfriend." haha. guess i worried about "why doesn't this guy want to be my boyfriend."
all my problems back then seemed so simple. now i've got more things to worry about. more complicated situations that i get myself into. can't really say if it's better or worse. just puts a different perspective on how i live my life these days. i was just such a kid when i wrote these entries and i can just read them and either laugh at what i wrote, or cringe at them too. it's about time i fucking grow up, right? even though reading about my infamous Reed Crush is kind of fun. ugh. i remember how i used to just love coming to work just to see him. things are just different now. crushes are useless at this age. if you like a guy, you just go for it. wow. maybe i've gotten a little more self confidence and didn't even realize it. in the past, if i liked a guy, i would just flirt with him and hope for the best. now, i will flirt and either give out a number or get a number. it's that easy. why wonder about it, when you can just ask and get it over with. =)
anyway, think i'm gonna read through more entries. don't even know if anyone still is on here since Myspace got so popular. i'm on there too, but so are so many of my friends and family that i can't say everything i want to like i know i can on here...maybe it's time to get back in with my old friend. Diaryland.

1:55 am - Jun. 20, 2006

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