unafraid's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- throw away the radio, suitcase keeps you awake the future seemed to be the topic of discussion at school today. my mind always went blank. when i think about my future and what it holds for me, all i can see is a black emptiness. not to sound all melodramatic (i know i do), but i just don't know what's going to happen. i don't know my "purpose" in life and i don't know what i'm even good at. everyone tells me, "well what do you like?" and i say "music." because music is what i eat, sleep, and breathe. i would love to get into the music industry, i'm just not sure what i'd do exactly. it'd be a dream come true to be a recording artist, but i doubt that will ever happen. what else could i do? i don't want to grow up. i don't think any of us really do. well, that's not true. i can't speak for everyone. i listened to our lady peace in class today on the computer and thought to myself "kristi has awesome taste." i'm leaning more towards our lady peace more and more everyday. and then i begin to think about my current favorite band. olp makes them seem like a simple pop band. i mean olp has these lyrics that just touch me so deeply. i can't listen to '4 AM' without crying. like sometimes, i'll just be in a mood where i can't listen to marv3 just because i'm not in a marv3 mood or i can't listen to neve for the same reason. but no matter what type of mood i'm in, i can ALWAYS listen to olp. but then i think neve will always be there. i mean, i may not feel quite the same way i feel about olp, but they're still always gonna be there. they opened up everything for me and i'll always love them. but for right now, olp just seems to be pulling me in. (i know kristi will love this entry.) i understand how she feels about them. i mean, i can't say that i feel as strongly about them right now as i know she does. olp is everything to kristi and i'm starting to understand why now. if i was told that i could only listen to one band for the rest of my entire life, it would be olp. anyway, the point of this entry is just that...well... i heart our lady peace. 1:35 p.m. - May 1, 2001 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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