unafraid's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- cuz when you smile that smile my world turns upside down... what a day i've had. =) last night i spent the night with lindsay and we really had fun. i mean, we didn't do much at all, but still it was just fun in that "i'm-so-glad-you're-my-friend" type of way. well even if it wasn't that way for her, it was for me. it's amazing how we know each other so well and can predict what the other person is about to say or do without even putting much thought into it, ya know? and when we woke up this morning (afternoon) - it was snowing!!! i was so happy. we decided the night before that lindsay and i would go to the Parks mall to go visit Reed and then to the Irving mall so i could give Ricky his Ben Folds 5 DVD back and visit with him. we called the parks and reed wasn't there. that was okay with me though, because i was more excited about seeing Ricky. so we went outside when we were ready to leave...and had a snowball fight. =) it was so much fun. i was getting snow off my car to throw at her and leaning up against the car, and my jeans got soaked! it was so fun. then we headed for the Irving Mall and eventually found the Sam Goody there after having to look at a directory. The sam goody there is about as small as the one i just left, but it has more things. my store was actually the same size as that one, but lacking the PDA's, gaming products, stereo systems, etc. plus, the sign on the front of the store looked to be about a million years old. it was funny lookin'. anyway, so me and linds went in and i saw ricky on a ladder messing with some lights. well his face was sort of covered by a light fixture and i couldn't tell if it was him or not, but sure enough - he got down and came over to talk to me. =) he said that he had called the new store i work at and got my home #, but it didn't work. (it was at the house i used to live at) so i gave him back the DVD and we discussed the highlights of it and everything. then, holding my breath, i metioned the Ben Folds concert coming up. i asked if he was going and i said i really wanted to go as well, but i didn't know how that was going to be possible since i couldn't find anyone to go with (i haven't asked anyone to go at all). so, without even having to ask if he would like to go with me, he says "yeah, i'd definately like to--" and the phone rang cutting him off mid-sentence. i knew i had it in the bag. he went to the back room and i went over to lindsay and got her opinion and told her that i was pretty sure it was set now and i was doing good. so he came back and we talked about it more and the plans are now set for us to go see Ben Folds together. =) i'm so excited! he told me how he had been trying to get ahold of me earlier because he wanted to go hang out with me some. he said i "seemed like a pretty cool person" and i said he did too and we laughed at the corniness. so we went to the back room, talked some more, and exchanged numbers. he has all this weekend off, but unfortunately, i don't. still, i hope that i when i get off work one of those days, i can get ahold of him and we can meet up. but i was just thrilled when he said he wanted to hang out. i mean, i know it may not mean much, but it's something, you know? it shows he's somewhat interested and wants to maybe get to know me better. which is more than i can say for some other guys i've been interested in. i was actually very suprised because i was just waiting to figure out he wasn't interested and once again all this would lead up to be was just a stupid crush on a guy who couldn't return the feelings. but could he really possibly be interested??? god, i hope so. he's funny, he has good musical taste, he's someone who understands my work, he's cute....etc. he smokes, but i really don't even care. who doesn't these days? okay, well a lot of people i know don't, but that's not the point. the point is we get along great and i really want this one to work and for some reason, i have a feeling it might. but it's like i keep thinking to myself "what does ricky want from me?! why doesn't he go for some older, cuter chick that i know he could easily have? why me??" i think too much. anyway, i just had to get all of that out of my system. and i know some people will probably be like "susie. what makes you think this guy is different from all the other guys you've had short, meaningless flings with?" i just have this feeling. not like the feeling lindsay and jason had on their first date where they knew they were *meant to be* or anything, it's just this little feeling that's telling me to keep pursuing this thing and maybe we'll find out we have a lot more in common than just musical tastes and work. i'm keeping my fingers crossed and my hopes up on this one. he seems interested, why not see how well we really click? i'm so excited. oh yeah, and school was cancelled tonight due to the snow. what a perfect day. =) 7:44 pm - Feb. 05, 2002 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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