unafraid's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- my heart is yours, fill or burst. i should be sleeping right now, shouldn't i? work at 10 am tomorrow? eh. who needs sleep, right? i was inspired today after i got home from work to start on a new song. 50% inspiration from reed and the rest from Wilco. god, i love that band. i've been listening to their cd that came out tuesday (2 days ago) whenever i'm in the car or my room and i put it on the stereo in the store at work. it's so...brilliant. *sigh* i really need to meet jeff tweedy. before i die, that's what i want. if i suddenly contract some horrid disease, i want my last dying wish to spend a whole day (or two!) with jeff tweedy. hey, the whole band would be even better. they could give me a little acoustic show. =) anyway, work was kind of odd today. reed and i didn't talk for about the first hour and then we just started chatting and goofing off. i'm mainly looking forward to friday when we'll work alone together for 3 hours. won't that be lovely. *wink wink* but that also means there will be no one for us to watch the store if we happen to go to the backroom and...ummm...ya know...shag. haha yeah right. me and reed -- shag??? in a million years. (does anyone even say "shag" anymore??) laura told me today that i need to tell him how i feel about him. but i don't see what purpose this would serve. it's like i know deep down inside he does not like me back the way i like him. so why would i tell him? to make work ackward? i don't want him to feel weird around me and i definately don't want things to change. if he knew, would he treat me differently? or could i actually work on it for the next couple of months before he's off to college and maybe change his mind about me? do you think i could make him interested? should i just move on and forget it? i think it could all possibly be just another lost cause. it's going to be really hard when he leaves in august. very tough. it'll be last december all over again when he left the first sam goody i worked at. that sucked. and once again, we'll be in the exact same situation. okay, now i think i've rambled on too much. for those of you who are getting bored with me rambling on and on about him all the time now...i apologize. i'll try to cut back. it really is sad and pathetic, isn't it? 1:10 am - Apr. 25, 2002 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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