unafraid's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- cause i feel so defeated and i'm feeling alone well, yesterday kinda...sucked. i was in an okay mood during the day though. i went up to the parks mall to return a book that i know i'll never read and plus, i could use the money. and then i stopped by sam goody to visit with the kids. that only took about 20 minutes. that was the only fun part of the day. 5 o'clock rolled around and i finally got a call from joy telling me to go to her house since we were supposed to go to a listening party for Pinkston that night. i got there and some more people showed up and we left. the club was in dallas somewhere and none of us had been there so we sort of had to guess. we parked about 8 blocks too far so we had to walk 8 blocks to the club - to find out it was a 21+ club. so we walk the 8 frickin' blocks back to the car. at this point, i'm exhausted and i don't think i had said a word the whole time. so we decide to go to Oak Lawn and go to the Cafe Brazil there. i still haven't said a word and i was pretty much just spacing out at this point. i felt like crying and i wasn't sure why. we eat and try to find a club to go to, but give up and decide to go home. a few hours later...i still haven't said a word. joy kept asking me if i was okay. there was only one thing that had been on my mind last night that was bringing me down and making me think too much. but i won't go into it here. i just felt numb the whole night. i wanted to go home, crawl into bed, and hybernate for the next couple of weeks (or months). anyway, yeah. that was my exciting day. and i have to leave for work in about 30 minutes now. ew. i don't want to be there tonight at all. i haven't quite gotten out of that numbness state yet. great. that means my sales are going to suck tonight because i don't feel like trying. oh well. it's just a job, right? later. 2:18 pm - Jun. 28, 2002 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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